Precious Little Nuggets

In the process of switching to a new email address, I have discovered that my lovely blog that is inconsistently updated will be deleted along with the old email. This is a bitter/sweet discovery since a lot of my posts were during "the dark days" and it would do me good to rid myself of anything connected to that period. Still, there are little nuggets in the recent posts (my version of recent being the last two years) that would sadden me to lose. Therefore, my first couple of posts on this new, shiny blog will be preserving the old, then welcoming the new.

This first post was the start of a very significant change in my life: The baby sister sprouted her wings and flew all the way to California. I also find humor in this post because it mentions Mr. Joel Houston.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Expectations

My sister is leaving soon.

I've been forced to accept this truth in the past week more than I anticipated. It still feels like such a far off thing that is still in the idea stage rather than a reality that is taking place in less than two months. There are such warring emotions that keep fighting to take front and center amongst my thoughts. There’s the obvious feeling of being so excited for what she’s about to experience and the other obvious, more selfish side of dreading being away from her. But as I allow myself to think more about her leaving, I realize that there’s one thought that prevails over all: I will definitely be forced to step out of the shadows. This brings on a mix of fear, excitement and anticipation all at once. I will no longer have her to hide behind or to lean on. Of course, it’s natural and healthy to have a sister to lean on, but not when it causes a lack of courage to step out on your own when needed. I know this will be a season of growth and discovery, in which I choose to embrace with courage.

There is one thing that seems to overpower these thoughts at the moment and it is the possibility of actually getting to cross off a dream on my list: meeting Joel Houston. It is still not official yet, but I know God is a God of dreams and I know He delights in seeing these fulfilled. I also know that Lance and Banning are completely capable of pulling it off. With that said, there are just 3 short days left. 3 days.

3 DAYS.

Whoa.

Sadly (for me), I did not get to meet Joel. Even more sadly (especially for me), he is now married. God is still a God of dreams and I know He still delights in seeing them fulfilled.

So let's keep dreaming.